Collector

Your palm is there in front of me
and I keep trying to walk around it
maybe under it or over it
The lines on your hand aren't changing like I thought they would
and when it rains a small pool collects there
sometimes I can see my reflection in it
then the water drains out where nails left a pore
it scares me
but it's amazing

My eyes have been working too hard
Can't they just take a break from taking in the world?

Your palm is screaming
Alright. 
Take everything
it's not fair
You will just collect all of our thorns and wrap them around your head
with no resentment 
with no restraint
with no second thought

I'll always be in the red
because you won't take my money
all you will take is my guilt and my pain
it's amazing
and I shouldn't be scared

Eva Hesse

Eva Hesse
I don't know where I belong so I give up again, all the time it is like that. I have really been discovering my weird humor and making sick or maybe cool, but I can only see things that way, experience them also but I can't feel cool. This is my hopelessness. Like it is all based on fear and cannot be cool when one constantly feels fear. Everything for me personally is glossed with anxiety.. How do you believe in something deeply? How is it one can pinpoint believe into a singular purpose


Sol Lewitt

Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling, grasping,…Stop it and just DO!…

Don’t worry about cool, make your own uncool. Make your own, your own world. If you fear, make it work for you – draw & paint your fear and anxiety…

You must practice being stupid, dumb, unthinking, empty. Then you will be able to DO!…

Try to do some BAD work – the worst you can think of and see what happens but mainly relax and let everything go to hell – you are not responsible for the world – you are only responsible for your work – so DO IT. And don’t think that your work has to conform to any preconceived form, idea or flavor. It can be anything you want it to be…

I know that you can only work so much and the rest of the time you are left with your thoughts. But when you work or before your work you have to empty your mind and concentrate on what you are doing. After you do something it is done and that’s that. After a while you can see some are better than others but also you can see what direction you are going. I’m sure you know all that. You also must know that you don’t have to justify your work – not even to yourself.