Belt Loops

well, today I decided not to think about you

because thoughts of you drag me down

so I set the dial on my brain to block you out

and every time a little thought of you would creep in

my frontal lobe would squish its guts

I was doing very well

but then I saw your dad

then later, your sister

it was the universe was doing everything in it's power

to keep you wrapped up inside my skull

I  g u e s s  t h a t s  w h e r e  y o u  b e l o n g . 

But maybe if I fight thoughts of you with all my might

the universe will do what it did today

and everyday I don't think about you

it will pull you closer to me

I am going to trick the universe

with a little old fashion reverse psychology

yes, this plan is perfect

fool proof

and when it drops you right in front of me

I'll tie our left hands together

and hook our belt loops with a bungee chord

Then, everything will be perfect.

Egg Shells

Sometimes I don’t feel a thing

beneath my face is just a grey stone 

I can make them all think I care

My eyes know just when to light up

Sometimes I feel a shell forming on my skin

and if I try to move from it’s mold it breaks and pierces me

My roots don’t want soil to burrow in

they just want to sway in the wind and smell new smells

One time, you told me you loved me

but it bounced off my shell and shattered on the ground

I wanted to catch it on the way down

but my knees wouldn’t bend

Everyday my shell grows thicker

But one day

I’m going to meet someone with a hammer

or a band saw

whichever. 

and once they break through the shell

they can tell me that they love me

and it will just absorb into my soft skin